May 17, 2013

  • Day 3

    Parents

    Mom and Dad,

    I understand, now.  My childhood blinders have been taken off.  I have a child, and I have had adult relationships.  It sometimes gets screwed up.  People are extremely capable of causing pain and heartbreak.  It is part of life.  Part of my life.  You just had the unfortunate circumstance of being the first people who hurt me.  And I had the unfortunate circumstance of having it happen to me early.  I don't hate either one of you, anymore.  I feel you could have done things better and differently, but that won't change them now.   There is no longer a need to change it.  I have accepted you.  Dad, I know exactly what you have to offer me, and I can handle that.   I won't expect more.  I won't be disappointed.  Mom,  I am OK with the fact that you want the best for me.  I know we do not agree on what that is.  I apologize if it hurts you, but I'm not worried about it. Mom, I DO love you.  Dad, you ARE family.  I will claim you both, and own myself in the process.  May I take your mistakes and make them better in my daughter. Or even eventually children.  

    Leah Katherine
    (Katie-Turtle)