Take a bow 'cause you played your heart out
And take your time with working the rest out
And try and stay out of your head
I have seen you invent the damnedest things there

Oh, so what?
Maybe she could not really ever see you through herself
What does that change about you or her?
Try and stay out of your head
I have seen you invent the damnedest things there

Maybe down the road I'll see you in a blur
From the speed of light you've had with her
Maybe down the road I'll see you in a blur
See you in a blur

Don't lean back, my friend
There's not much there that will push you on
Use your stride, slow
And break it up over time

And try and stay out of your head
I have seen you invent the damnedest things there
Try and stay out of your head
I have seen you invent the damnedest things there

Take a bow 

Leah K.

8 for August.   Leo/Leah the Lion

Once a Lion is committed to a relationship, they are totally devoted and faithful. Should their heart or trust be broken they never forgive or forget. When a relationship breaks down (even a long standing one) they can disappear into the sunset without a backward look. Leos can cut ties, and leave others heartbroken, but usually there is a good reason why they have broken a tryst. For a Leo, when a relationship is over, really over, it is over for good.

I'm Gonna Find Another You - John John

It's really over, you made your stand
You got me crying, as was your plan
But when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you

You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons but you will never have my rhymes
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you

When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another, I hope she looks like you
Yeah and she's nicer too

So go on baby
Make your little get away
My pride will keep me company
And you just gave yours all away
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two
Once for me and once for someone new
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do
Oh I'm gonna find another you

I got chills at 1:25.      mmmmmmmmmmm

Leah K.

Now for the more realistic side of the story.

Lance took Luci and I to a hotel.  We were on a vacation.  It was more like a condo.  It had a kitchen and living area.  I started making dinner.  Luci was in the kitchen with me.  Lance started to go a little crazy.  He got angry at absolutely nothing, and went on tear.  Destroying things.  Yelling.  At first it was in a different room, and Luci and I were not involved.  I was worried about dealing with the damage to the hotel room, and trying to keep Luci away from anything harmful.  I was planning how to leave most effectively.  The door was through the living room.  I didn't want to have a confrontation because that would only add to the situation, and then direct some of the anger at me.  But it appeared to be unavoidable.  I walk into the living room completely ready.  I have Luci's and my things.  We are prepared to leave.  He looks at me.  His eyes get big for a moment.  He realizes he's in the wrong, and he's sorry for it.  But then the look changes.  His anger is bubbling to the surface and now it's directed at me.  I know he has no control over it, and I tell him so.   I tell him, I know this is because of the meds you are taking, and I have to get myself and my daughter away from you.  Then shit gets real.  He pours some flammable substances on the carpet between us and the door.  He the proceeds to light it.  The flames are almost white with blue along the base.   He thinks he has kept me in.  He's wrong.  I pick Luci up and run through the flames on the floor.   My feet are on fire when I get through the door.  He sees this.  I stamp them out and turn back to look at him.  To show him he can't control me.  I will not do what he wants.   His mind clears and he is appalled.  I see the look of total devastation in his eyes.  He hurt me.  He physically hurt me.  He would never forgive himself.  Nor would I be back to forgive him.  

Chew on that.   @Hangingbyamoment22  Very Very VERY metaphorical.    Truth in my dreams.  

I then had a dream about someone stalking me with Ice cream cake.....   I was hungry, I think. 

Leah K.

Carpe Diem - William Shakespeare

O mistress mine, where are you roaming? 
O stay and hear! your true-love's coming 
That can sing both high and low; 
Trip no further, pretty sweeting, 
Journey's end in lovers' meeting-- 
Every wise man's son doth know. 

What is love? 'tis not hereafter; 
Present mirth hath present laughter; 
What's to come is still unsure: 
In delay there lies no plenty,-- 
Then come kiss me, Sweet and twenty, 
Youth's a stuff will not endure.

I am always saying I want to live somewhere else.  I want a life different from the one I have.

I am not settled.  I am not stationary.  I am not satisfied.  

I am roaming. I'm also alone.  

Why, when I view my future as an unknown, would I attach myself to another person?  

But then, my future would no longer be unknown if I attached myself to another person.

As you can see I have hit a Catch 22.   

I believe wholeheartedly that my journey is not ending.  

I believe wholeheartedly that my journey isn't leading me just to some lovers' meeting.  

Is this denial?  

I spend most of my time avoiding people that don't fit into my ever changing future.  

Would it be better to make a future based on a person? 

Would it be a sacrifice?  Would it be settling? 

Or is it really "In delay there lies no plenty"?  

Am I missing out on something?  

I need a change.  For real this time.

I must decide if I want a change in the direction of my future.

Or should I look for my future in someone else?

I've never actively searched for someone.  

Since "youths a stuff will not endure".

I guess I must change my thoughts on love being a hereafter.

Leah K.

Aries

Wide Open Spaces - Dixie Chicks

Taurus

Material Girl - Madonna

Leah K.

Aquarius

Rape of the World - Tracy Chapman

Mother of us all
Place of our birth
How can we stand aside
And watch the rape of the world

This the beginning of the end
This the most heinous of crimes
This the deadliest of sins
The greatest violation of all time

Mother of us all
Place of our birth
We all are witness
To the rape of the world

You've seen her stripped mined
You've heard of bombs exploded underground
You know the sun shines
Hotter than ever before

Mother of us all
Place of our birth
We all are witness
To the rape of the world

Some claim to have crowned her
A queen
With cities of concrete and steel
But there is no glory no honor
In what results
From the rape of the world

Mother of us all
Place of our birth
We all are witness
To the rape of the world

She has been clear-cut
She has been dumped on
She has been poisoned and beaten up
And we have been witness
To the rape of the world

Mother of us all
Place of our birth
How can we stand aside
And watch the rape of the world

If you look you'll see it with your own eyes
If you listen you will hear her cries
If you care you will stand and testify
And stop the rape of the world

Stop the rape of the world
Mother of us all
Mother of us all
Mother of us all
Mother of us all...

Leah K.

Where is the money.

I'm really not sure how people get money.  I know a lot of people have money, and it is just a little beyond me how they get it.  It's like there is some secret I was never taught.  

My Granddaddy was a farmer.  My Meemaw was a farmer's wife.  They lived on a small farm and worked sunrise to sundown everyday but Sunday.  They lived in a small house that was never updated (unless you call what they did to it in the 70's an update).  They lived from harvest to harvest with debt in between.  Yet they gave food out of their garden to neighbors and needy.  They also provided spiritual and moral guidance to everyone in the community.  In other words, money was of no importance, and wasn't really present.  

I believe this is how I approach work.  My job is my life.  There is no money.  It really blows my mind that the amount of work a person does has no bearing on the amount of their paycheck.  I'm tired of people saying, "I can make $3000 in one day just by making a phone call."  Do you realize what I am doing to get half that amount? Hours and hours and it's not working.  What is it about you that makes that money available?   Would it even be possible for me to have the same opportunities?  No.  The things I sell, no one buys.  In someone else's hands the same items would be productive.  Other people are successful with the same things I have to offer, and even less.  I feel like I have more appeal in some of those cases.  It's just me.  And I am tired of it.  

This is where I fail at life.  Also, in love.  I fail at that, too.  

Leah K.

Two artists I love with an awesome song I loved from the moment I first heard it.  

Leah K. 

Gemini

Forever Young- Rod Stewart

May the good lord be with you 
Down every road you roam 
And may sunshine and happiness 
Surround you when you're far from home 
And may you grow to be proud 
Dignified and true 
And do unto others 
As you'd have done to you 
Be courageous and be brave 
And in my heart you'll always stay 
Forever young, forever young 
Forever young, forever young 

May good fortune be with you 
May your guiding light be strong 
Build a stairway to heaven 
With a prince or a vagabond 

And may you never love in vain 
And in my heart you'll always remain 
Forever young, forever young 
Forever young, forever young 
Forever young 
Forever young 

And when you finally fly away 
I'll be hoping that I served you well 
For all the wisdom of a lifetime 
No one can ever tell 

But whatever road you choose 
I'm right behind you, win or lose 
Forever young, forever young 
Forever young, forever young 
Forever young, forever young 
For, forever young, forever young

Leah K.