June 10, 2013

  • Deny - Default

    Today I woke up and you were gone 
    The whole day wondering what I did wrong 
    It's like I'm falling from a mountaintop 
    My heart keeps pounding and it won't stop 

    Can you see this hell I'm living 
    I'm not giving up 

    Will you crawl to me 
    Will you fall with me 
    I'll never crawl to you 
    I've done it all for you 

    Well don't deny 
    The hand that feeds you needs you 
    Oh god I'd die to try to 
    Finally please you 

    There goes a piece of me 
    Will I cease to be 
    I've never lied to you 
    Fought bled and died for you 

    Well don't deny 
    The hand that takes you breaks you 
    Oh god I'd die to try to 
    Finally please you 

    There she goes and I'm on the ground, I'm on the ground, I'm on the 
    There she goes and I'm on the ground, I'm on the ground, I'm on the
    There she goes and I'm on the ground, I'm on the ground, I'm on the

     
    Well don't deny 
    The hand that feeds you needs you 
    Oh god I'd die to try to 
    Finally please you 

    Will you crawl to me 
    Will you fall with me 
    I've never crawled to you 
    I've done it all for you

     
     
     
     
    past and present alive in one song
     
    Leah K

June 7, 2013

  • Day 27

    The Friendliest Person You Knew For Only A Day

     

    Dude at Books a Million

    I'm glad I only knew you a day.  Good luck in your lifelong dream of becoming a movie star.   I appreciate you telling me how my body language showed you it would be a bad idea to start a conversation with me.  Because you see, you are studying body language and psychology to further your acting abilities.  My open book, buzzing phone, and bouncing foot are clues for you to practice on.   You're nice.  And very enthusiastic.  I appreciate the book recommendation.  See You in another life, Brotha.  

    Bookworm in chair #2

     

  • Does He Love You - Reba and Linda

     

    I've known about you for a while now
    When he leaves me, he wears a smile now
    As soon as he's away from me
    In your arms is where he wants to be

    But you're the one he rushes home to
    You're the one he gave his name to
    I never see his face in the early morning light
    You have his mornings, his daytime
    And sometimes, I have his nights

    But does he love you
    (Does he love you)
    Like he loves me?
    (Like he loves me?)
    Does he think of you
    (Does he think of you)
    When he's holding me?

    And does he whisper
    (Does he whisper)
    All of his fantasies
    Does he love you
    (Does he love you)
    Like he's been lovin' me?

    But when he's with me
    He says he needs me
    And that he wants me
    That he believes in me

    And when I'm in his arms
    Oh, he swears there's no one else
    Is he deceiving me
    Or am I deceiving myself

    But does he love you
    (Does he love you)
    Like he loves me?
    (Like he loves me?)
    Does he think of you
    (Does he think of you)
    When he's holding me?

    And does he whisper
    (Does he whisper)
    Of his fantasies
    Does he love you
    (Does he love you)
    Like he's been lovin me?

    I should not lose my temper
    (I should not be ashamed)
    'Cause I have everything to lose
    (And I, I have nothing to gain)

    But does he love you
    (Does he love you)
    Like he loves me?
    (Like he loves me?)
    Does he think of you
    (Does he think of you)
    When he's holding me?

    And does he whisper
    (Does he whisper)
    Of his fantasies
    Does he love you
    (Does he love you)
    Like he's been lovin me?
    Oh, does he love you?

     

     Leah K.

     

    It's been a rough morning

June 6, 2013

  • Day 25 & 26

    25 The person you know that is going through the worst of times 

    Aren't we all?   "Everyone's fighting their own battle" type of thing.  Hoping for a job.  Wishing for a baby.  Running out of money.  Swimming in debt.  Working themselves to death.  Custody fights.  Cheating spouses.  Sickness.  Loss.  Worry.   Please remember it's just for a time.  Things change and they change quickly.  We will make it through.  I pinky promise! 

     

    26 The last person you made a pinky promise to 

    reference above.  :)

     

    Leah K.

  • Day 24

    The person who gave you your favorite memory.   

    Tim Hegler

    He probably has no memory of this event or even me.  I've met him periodically over the years.  He was the ballet instructor/choreographer at Summer Workshop somewhere around 2003?  I learned so much from him.  I had many epiphanies about my body and dancing during those week long dives into the ballet world.  I also remember that I learned what real pain was and that I could dance through it.  He split everyone into groups.  Most people only participated in and learned the choreography for 2 dances.  After the first couple of days I had my two dances down.  Tim decided to put another number in the program.  He chose me to be in the new number.   He told us it was going to be challenging.  If we expected to get it we would have to put in practice at home in the evenings even after we had been dancing from 8-5.  The next day when we went over the number I had it down and I was helping the other dancers with their parts.  Tim worked with me that afternoon as everyone was leaving on some things I missed while practicing for the other numbers.  He told me I surprised him on how dedicated I was to getting the dances.  He wanted to let me know that he noticed how hard I was working.  When we placed the piece the next day, Tim put me center stage and even gave me a small solo part.  There I was center stage with the spotlight on me, everyone else on stage was still as I finished the song by myself.  When the show was over, I went up to Tim to say my goodbyes and thank him for the week.  We sat on the front of the stage, and he told me I was one of the best students he had the pleasure of teaching.  He told me at first I faded into the crowd and didn't stand out with my dancing.  But every day I showed I was working as hard as I could and finally showed my ability.  He told me, he would be happy to work with me as his student at the University.  He said he knew he would never be disappointed if I came to his class and worked like that.   

    He told these things to a 14 year old who had never been recognized as being a capable dancer by anyone except Miss Dixie.  I failed miserably at all auditions.  My previous dance teacher forgot who I was 3 years in a row. I was older than all the other girls in my dance class, yet they were just as advanced as me.  It was a major turning point in thinking I was a dancer.  I was able to not take it so hard when my first impressions were lacking.  I knew I could prove myself over time.  It's funny how just a few words of encouragement can change your life.  I will always love that memory.  I hope I get to continue working with Tim periodically in the future.  He will be first on my list when I have enough money to bring in a professional guest teacher.  

    Leah K.

June 5, 2013

  • Horoscope Entry

     

    Hi Leah! Here is your Daily Horoscope for Wednesday, June 5
    Legal issues may push you back a bit -- but you don't have to let them bring you all the way down! Just make sure that you've got support and that you've picked the right side.

     

    Holy Heck.    Truth.

     

    Leah K.

June 4, 2013

  • Day 20-22

    Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest – You can not break me.  I won't allow it.     

    Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression – PG dancers.  I thought they were stuck up bitches and I was pretty correct.  

    Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to – I’ve already given them to every single person I could.   2nd chances, 3rd chances.  Right now I'm on a 4th chance.  

     

     

    Leah K.

     

    Sorry, I didn't like any of these

June 3, 2013

  • Don't Hold The Wall - Justin Timberlake

      

    Dance, don't hold the wall
    Dance, don't, don't, don't hold the wall
    Dance, dance, don't hold the wall
    Da-da-dance, don't hold the wall

    [Verse 1: Justin Timberlake]
    C'mon, on the floor with them legs,
    Was getting down but now I get up,
    Cause I heard you tell your girlfriend that I deserve better,
    Well, I think you look better
    But you're so far, I had to come get ya'

    [Bridge]
    Take you to the light,
    It's dark in the back
    You started moving,
    You put an arch in your back
    Closer to me, closer to me
    Sippin' your drink,
    And you're getting closer to me
    Dance in the light,
    Starting to see,
    You started moving,
    You're getting closer to me
    And now you won't even let me go

    [Hook 2: Justin Timberlake & Timbaland]
    So baby hold up,
    Dance, don't hold the wall
    Let it go,
    Dance, don't, don't, don't hold the wall
    Baby hold up,
    Da-da-dance, don't hold the wall

    [T:] Dance, (What you do to me?)
    Dance, don't, don't, don't, hold the wall
    Dance, dance, (What you do to me?)
    Da-da-dance, don't hold the wall

    [Hook 1]

    [Verse 2]
    I think I heard what you said
    He's not what you thought and you're fed up
    I heard your girlfriend tell you, you could do better,
    Well, I'm the best ever
    But you're so far, I had to come get ya'

    [Bridge]

    [Hook 2]

    [Bridge: Justin Timberlake]
    Dance, don't hold the wall
    Dance, don't hold the wall

    [Hook 2]

    [Hook 3: Justin Timberlake x2]
    C'mon and dance,
    C'mon baby dance with me
    Take my hand,
    Get on the floor
    C'mon baby dance with me
    Please don't hold the wall
    Please don't hold the wall tonight
    We're gonna do it all,
    So please don't hold the wall tonight

    [Outro: Justin Timberlake & Timbaland]
    [J:] Where you running to?
    Where you running to?
    [T:] Don't hold the wall
    [J:] Hey, where you running to?
    [T:] Dance, don't hold the wall

    Dance, don't hold the wall
    Dance, don't hold the wall

     
     
     
     
    "Drop all your worries and you can leave all the rest on.  We can do it while you still got your dress on."   - Dress On by Justin Timberlake   
     
    Leah K.
  • Day 19

    Someone that pesters your mind 

     

    Miss Carolyn

    I only knew her for a year.  That year was a huge turning point in my life.  We went through so much together.  We were together every day.  Working together.  Talking together.   Having a good time in a bad time.  She taught me a lot.  It bothers me that we didn't continue our relationship.  I think about her, and I know she has had a rough time the past 2 years.  Her husband passed away.  They were pretty low on money.  I hope she is doing OK.  

    Miss Leah

June 2, 2013

  • Day 18/ Definition Entry

    The Person You Wish You Could Be

    Leah K,

    Self Sufficient -  Able to provide for oneself without the help of others; independent.

    1. able to supply one's or its own needs without external assistance.
    2. having extreme confidence in one's own resources or powers.
     
    I've been realizing lately, being able to provide for yourself sometimes requires the help of others.  It requires allowing others to do what's needed.  I have always been an "I can do it myself" girl.  I'm changing to believe Self Sufficient is a negative term.  I want to strive for Self Reliance.  Being able to recognize what needs to be done and using everything and anything to make it happen.  Even if that means using someone else's sweat and blood. 
     
     
    Self Reliance - Reliance on one's own capabilities, judgment, or resources; independence.
     
     
    Faithful - 
    1. Adhering firmly and devotedly, as to a person, cause, or idea; loyal.
    2. Engaging in sex only with one's spouse or only with one's partner in a sexual relationship.
    3. Having or full of faith.
    4. Worthy of trust or belief; reliable.
    5. Consistent with truth or actuality: a faithful reproduction of the portrait.
     
    I'm glad I am faithful.  It is a quality I have an abundance of, but it's not enough.  It's an inactive quality.  I am faithful by not departing from something.  I am faithful by not changing my beliefs.  I want it to be an active choice.  I also want it to show to the outside world.  I want others to be able to look up to my faith.  My faith in people.  My faith in myself.  My faith in God.  I want it to be evident.  
     
     
    Some more words I wish would be in my life?
    Home, Family, Love, Partnership, Freedom, Success, Confidence.  All of these things are missing right now.  I can feel them coming.  I can taste them. 
     
    Through faith in my own self reliance I can acquire all of these things.... right?
     
    Leah K.